It’s starting to grind again. I’m at that point where, when I manage to distract myself from all my distractions and actually sit down to write, I can barely manage to push out a paragraph before I falter.
I mentioned before how I’d ground out a chapter that way, one or two paragraphs at a time, and thought it was disjointed and weak only to have my sister tell me it was the best I’d written so far. So, I’m pretty sure if I can just kick myself in the ass hard enough, the basic quality of my work will hold up.
So I’m trying to put one foot in front of the other and keep it moving. Journey of a thousand miles, blah blah blah. The problem I ran into yesterday is that I had the main characters tour a stable, meet with some polo players, and watch an entire polo match – in three paragraphs. After taking a couple hours to get that far, I looked at it and went, “Really? All that in three paragraphs?”
So I got to thinking – a good form of distraction – and I reasoned that perhaps this was merely a transitional scene, and not one of those parts of the story that really move things forward. Therefore I shouldn’t waste a lot of the readers time on things that don’t matter… right?
Truth is, I don’t know where the hell the story is going right now. Oh, I know where it’s going to end up, I’m just not sure of the path it is going to take to get there. So should I take a few pages to describe all of the stuff? Should I describe each horse, the colors of the wrappings on their legs, the differences among polo saddles, English saddles, and Western saddles? Will the readers enjoy an exciting description of the polo match? I can probably fluff all that up pretty easily – as a kolij granulate (twice!) I’m no stranger to filling x pages for a paper – but is it important to the story? That’s the real question.
The answer is, I have no freakin’ clue. “The answer,” he said, pointing a finger at the knucklehead staring at him out of the mirror, “is to just write it.”
First things first. Write it all down, and get a complete first draft. Write fast, write slow, write with music, write in a darkened room… whatever it takes. Get it out of your head and onto the screen. Then, you can edit, revise, and rewrite. That is what I tell myself, while I sit here banging out a stupid blog post instead of writing.
::sigh:: Okay… back to work then.